Currently Listening Coco By Colbie Caillat Oxygen see related

Since concrete journals are overrated here I am, yet again, on Xanga. A website that could be shut down at any time, yet existing only to hold my most public thoughts and PG journeys through life.

What's new with me? Well I'm single. (What's new?)
I dislike my school. (What's new?)
I enjoy a good margarita on the rocks. (What's new?)
Oh I know! I bought a kitty! His name is JiM!!! But our landlords made us give him the boot, so now he's off roaming the streets of St. Cloud. Hopefully he has mastered the art of hunting enough by now to last the winter. Oh, and don't worry; we got him vaccinated for rabies. You know, in case he bites a bum or something.
Okay I was only half serious. I love animals; he's living with my roommate's parents in Menagha.   I miss him...
Hmmm... What else?!

I just signed a lease today for my living space next year. I will be living in a house with, gulp, NINE GIRLS. Yes. There will be NINE of us. I barely know seven or eight of the girls too... Up to this point I've only lived with one or two other roommates so I have no idea what to expect. AND when I lived with two, one was a dude. Nine girls..... What did I just sign myself up for?! Holy Shit.

Hey! Here's some fun news!!! I will be 21 years of age in merely 16 days. Fuckin' right. I have another fake so it's not like I have been sulking alone for the last few months, but GOD DAMMIT I'm almost fucking there. I am so sick of authority figures thinking they own just because I'm dabbling with something children in Europe drink at the age of three to tide their hangover from Mother's breast milk. Honestly. I can not express enough how long I have waited. Actually, I can. Twenty-One years. But you know what I mean.

You know, I'm writing this at the library right now. GheTtOoOOo. My roomie and I don't wanna pay for internet but I think we're getting fed up of having to walk to the library just to pay an online bill or check our grades. But living is expensive this year so, I guess the inconvenience is somewhat worthwhile. Damn. I just realized I'm super tired right now. All week this week I've had to work at 7:45am. And yes, I'm well aware that to some people that is considered "sleeping in" but guess what: NOT FOR ME. For me having to get up before about 8:30 is Hell. Plus, at my job I can't have a hangover, I can't just not brush my hair or go in my clothes from the night before. I do daycare. Enough said. Parents would notice and probably complain... not to mention having ten preschoolers tackling you when you are still drunk from the night before its horrendous. Eh. Anyway, I didn't go out last night AND I got about seven hours of sleep and yet WHAM! It'll just hit me that I've already been up too long. You know, I think I'm going to go home and play some Guitar Hero III. Xanga is so lame. No one is even going to read this anyway. And if they do, shame on them for actually doing so!
Blogging isn't really all that cool when you live in Minnesota and lack profound thoughts.

Until Next Time  *BrOokE*

I am going to be a nerd and overanalyze a situation.
Still wanna read on?

So........
I liked this guy. Or is it like?! Allow me to rephrase: I have a history with this one guy. We like eachother, then we don't, well we do but we try not to, you know... all that jazz. Well, I was paroozing facebook and noticed that there was an update to his "Here For" zone; who knows how long it was changed, I'm not creepy and monitoring people's facebooks. Anyway, he edited out Here For Friendship and replaced it with Dating and A Relationship.
NOW, understand that this guy has been calling me again. HE'S the one that shut ME down at the beginning of the year for "not wanting a relationship" which is "where we were headed". Umm, okay... why the sudden change of heart, then?
(WARniNg: I shall now go into uber-girl mode)
BUT regardless if he is calling me again and stuff, his house is THE freshman-girls-that-don't-know-of-any-other-parties sanctuary... soooo I may be looking into something that isn't there. But how can one know for sure? I have wanted to flippin DATE this kid for about two years now. We're on, we're off, but we're never just an item. It'd be nice to at least get the opportunity to try it out; or get it out of  my system so I can move on! haha~
Time for the twist-->  This dude is kinda an ass. Like, not he himself, but I mean in terms of he is just kind of dumb sometimes (literally dumb) and doesn't think through his actions. He also doesn't have much up there that is intellectually stimulating, and I like to converse and learn and just relate. My roomates always tell me I can do better, as does my best friend, and his ex, and half my other friends... actually most of my other friends. SO WHY THE HELL AM I EVEN BATTLING THESE EMOTIONS? He's cool but I guess that isn't enough.
Plus, does anyone want a relationship with someone that isn't friend-approved?

I suck at this, you see.
So... What do you think?